Time to heal

I feel as though a piece of my world, my heart, of me, has died.
I thank you all for the kind words and warm thoughts, they warm my heart.
I am so thankful for photos like this one above.
Look at the orneriness in those eyes.
Boy oh boy...Love you Mom.

Mom's hands

Moments before my daughter took this picture, my Mom squeezed my hand for the last time. If only I had known right then it would be the last time.
I miss her so.

My heart

My Mom is now at peace. Boy will I miss her. My heart is aching.

My Mom likes roses.

This morning I got the first dreaded call, "Your mother has taken a turn for the worse." I rushed down the interstate to be with her.
She has Leukemia and the last word on it, well she was given six months to live. Tomorrow will be six months.
Tonight they started her on morphine. They'll "keep her comfortable" and well, you know...at least I imagine you do.
I have come home, my neck hurt, my head hurt, my heart hurts.
I will wait for a call and if no call tonight, I will visit her in the morning and sit with her.
She said a while back she doesn't want a bunch of people sitting around her holding her hand feeling bad and crying. We won't. However, today, she held my hand while she laid in bed, even while she was asleep. Bless her heart.
Love to you all and give yourself a hug from me.

Crazy and the prizes

Crazy the cat...yes, that's her name, Crazy she is.
She was as thrilled as I to get so many fun packages in the mail.

I won this Itty Bitty Book from my sweet friend Mary Ann at follow Your Bliss designs during the One World One Heart event...OWOH for short. I LOVE Itty Bitty Books.

Look at the paper my next prize was wrapped in.

It was all such pretty and fun stuff.

A tag book for me to beautify!

All the goodies came to me from Paper Bird
The book Paper Flowers is so fun and I want to try some of the ideas in it.

I have more...I'll post tomorrow!

Racoons and Three Glorious Years!

Racoons eating dog food...
My son was house sitting and these two found dog food in the back yard, so my son took some little movies. I like how this fella looks like he is cleaning each piece before he eats it.

Three years ago on March 4, 2006 I started this blog at my sisters request.
She introduced me to the artist Violette and her message board.
Something was missing in my life and Violette and the Glitter Sisters on her blog was just what the doctor ordered!
I love this blog world and all the folks I've met here.
I was gonna do a giveaway, but I'm gonna wait a little bit, because I have nothing together to give just yet.
Soon I will have a giveaway...soon I promise.
Love to you all!

Happy Friday

So I've been waiting for my camera to come home so I can post a picture or two.
Soon.
I have one from last night when I had to wear a sombrero and be sung to at dinner...it was actually a good picture.
Some raccoon pics too...well anyway, soon.
Today I visited my mom at the hospital. She was getting blood and platelets at her request. Since that is all that is keeping her alive now, she is allowed to ask for it whenever she wants it. She keeps an eye on her counts each week and they were low. They seem to get lower faster now. It's to be expected.
While walking her to the bathroom, I remembered carrying my dad to the bathroom when I cared for him in his last month of life. I didn't just walk him, I carried him, he refused to wear a diaper and couldn't hold himself up at all. anyway, The carrying was getting to my back, so the nurse gave a catheter and once she did, he never stood up again, sat up or left his bed. So, I like that mom can still walk to the bathroom with just me as a backup...She said it was just to pick her up if she falls. She's funny.

Mom

Mom and I a couple of years ago.

Mom called today to let me know that there is nothing more that the oncologist can do for her leukemia other than the occasional blood transfusion to keep her going.
The body can only take so many blood transfusions before they stop working to sustain life and she has had them in the teens.
What do you say when your Mom calls to tell you she's dying...again?
You tell her that you love her and you keep doing what you're doing and visit more often.
Hug someone you love today...or call them...do it for the both of you.
Love to you all...hugs from me.

Happy Valentines Day!