Okay, so, I went to the doctor to find out why I'm so tired and all that good stuff and he gives me something more for sadness and blood tests.
The tests get back and the on call doctor sees my platelet count and calls my oncology/hematology and leaves the message that my count is critically low and I need to be seen ASAP.
The next morning I get the same message.
Well, today I went to the o/h doctor and he has a huge grin because my "critically low" platelet count was only at 61,000 down from my last test of 68,000.
For someone with ITP they don't treat until you get down to 20,000, unless you're having neck surgery, then they pump you with some platelets which lasts about two weeks.
He was also my moms oncologist and said that yes, I am tired and worn out from the low counts, but he feels that I am still grieving for my mom and that is adding to it.
So...
I just wanna sleep.
I want to put on a beautiful gown and wings just like the lady in the picture and take a nap somewhere beautiful.
Well, my bed will work too.
Take care of yourself and have a sense of humor!
Laugh and you'll feel better!
I know I am.
:)
The tests get back and the on call doctor sees my platelet count and calls my oncology/hematology and leaves the message that my count is critically low and I need to be seen ASAP.
The next morning I get the same message.
Well, today I went to the o/h doctor and he has a huge grin because my "critically low" platelet count was only at 61,000 down from my last test of 68,000.
For someone with ITP they don't treat until you get down to 20,000, unless you're having neck surgery, then they pump you with some platelets which lasts about two weeks.
He was also my moms oncologist and said that yes, I am tired and worn out from the low counts, but he feels that I am still grieving for my mom and that is adding to it.
So...
I just wanna sleep.
I want to put on a beautiful gown and wings just like the lady in the picture and take a nap somewhere beautiful.
Well, my bed will work too.
Take care of yourself and have a sense of humor!
Laugh and you'll feel better!
I know I am.
:)
8 comments:
Mahala, I understand completely. Grieving takes alot out of you.
I know how much you miss your Mom.
Please rest and take care of yourself.
with love
xx
She looks soooo comfy ... I think my bed's calling me, too. ;-)
I'm glad to hear your count wasn't any worse .. take care of you.
Good news on the count - and please - take all the naps you can get - you've been through a lot and emotions can be very tiring. It is a good thing you got stuff checked out though, just to be safe. Sleep well, and can I see your angel wings when you put them on?
Aloha Mahala..
I see you lying in the sun in Arizona, letting it's healing rays wash over you..
I wish you time to heal, and your mind to clear. Because you are a very special person.. :)
Peace n hugs, Kai xx
{{{HUGS MAHALA}}}
{{{ MAY THE LORD BLESS YOU }}}
{{{ WITH HIS LOVE AND COMFORT }}}
{{{ YOU UNDER HIS WINGS }}}
Sleeeep ,my child, ,,sleeeeeep....THe weather's perfect for staying in and slumbering..heh. I'm glad it wasn't anything worse!
Mahala my sweet friend....first let me say that I am quite relieved that your count isn't actually "critically" low.
Secondly depression causes one to feel fatigued. Mourning is a slow process and really, truly you need to let yourself FEEL it. Take a nap, go for a walk with your thoughts, think of your Mom in a really positive time for the two of you. But above all else treat yourself kindly and with patience.
Smiling is good medicine too!
XOXOXOXOXO
Lots of love and hugs,
Lisa
Mahala,
Please take care you sweetheart! Sending love and good wishes, Lori
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